Where to start?

I know it’s quite irritating to always hear brags and rants. However, I just want to let it all out. It’s because I’m feeling kind of frustrated nowadays. A continuous state of bafflement. Again, I’m so confused and it’s all about my career, job and probably my future. I got so much in my mind but I can’t seem to choose what to do first. Again, I’m undecided and it’s becoming so depressing or maybe I’m just over-thinking and over-analyzing things but I can’t help it. I got so many what if’s and they are all adding up to all my questions hanging up like clouds and their blocking my view to a brighter future. Ugh. I don’t want to sit at home and be lonely and wait for a sign or what. I want it to happen now, but that’s obviously impossible. Plus, I still have issues with my mom regarding my career choice. Ugh, I can’t deal with this anymore. 

Our frustration is greater when we have much and want more than when we have nothing and want some. We are less dissatisfied when we lack many things than when we seem to lack but one thing.

 Eric Hoffer quotes



Find yourself then find me

Tonight, we end all our questions without answers.

And our paths have crossed, and time has done it’s damage.

You can never drown in a empty pool of doubt.

I know I’ve tried , and failed,

’cause I’ve been here before it’s so hard to see, can you still hear me?

As I’m screaming out in vain,

there’s no need to convince me,

when there’s nothing left, to say.

Make me believe, that summer’s not grey without you.

couldn’t you see, that I built my whole world around you.

We were never lost, our faiths were reassuring

a lesson learned, inside a vacant hallway

with the lights dimmed low, it’s clear to see that it’s me who’s breaking’.

I know your touch is real, cause I’ve felt it before now it’s so hard to feel