Off from Facebook

It has been 2 months since I decided to deactivate and uninstall my Facebook account.

Nowadays, Social Media has been a huge part of our Lives and most people are on Facebook. I think that there’s a saying “if its not on Facebook, it didn’t happen” or “You do not exist if you are not on Facebook”. And for the past 2 months of being away from facebook, I realized that it didn’t really matter. I am fine with just using Instagram and I am happy that most of my close friends also use Instagram instead of Facebook which makes me feel that somehow I am still connected to my friends through these social media accounts. Twitter is also a big help, this is Where I usually Rant and Vent out.

These are what I have noticed, All kinds of people are on Facebook. It’s hard to filter which Items or types of people you just want to see. It’s also easy to put yourself out there when you are on facebook. The Share option can really go miles. Believe me I tried to delete/Unfriend those facebook friends that I really don’t know, posts too much nonsense and are always ranting on facebook but I guess I got tired and just decided that , you know what? I can just deactivate and uninstall, which I did. One of my bestfriends also deactivated her FB so might as well follow her. Haha!

On Instagram, I noticed that there are cliques (btw since I am using more instagram nowadays, this is what I have observed) When I say cliques, there are groups of people with same interest and once you followed this certain group of people, you will see more of these kinds of people and posts, they will also start following you or you attract these people with similar passion (which is good btw) In my personal account, my partner and I really love eating out, we are foodie buddies even during our dating days, when we started to live together, our love for food grew, the eat outs became more frequent, cooking is something we look forward to and eating will always be our bonding. Hence, the reason why I post mostly about food, restaurants and recipes, I think these food also show why and how we grew together.Recently, I use Instagram to find similar food interest and found that there are really particular groups on Instagram. You will notice these people follow each other and connect through photos and videos of similar interest. I honestly think this is good because as I see it they support each other even though they don’t know each other. Nice no?

When I created Thisissewnaiz, I decided that this account will really focus on handmade ideas, crafts, sewing and finding girls with similar interest of sewing as I am (Honestly it is a bit hard because most sewing enthusiast that I see are from different countries but I am loving all these Ideas that I am learning and seeing from them. I honestly like Instagram because there will be limited comments from each other as long as you are following only those that you like then you’ll be safe from any negative feedback. Ohh and don’t forget Pinterest too! But most pinterest photos are from instagram too so you can use both platforms whichever you prefer.

While on Twitter, what I love about it is you can mute any word that you don’t want to see. You can set your account on private that even if you react, the person will not see it unless he or she follows you back. Haha tricky. But overall, ranting, venting and even any of your interest you can follow on your twitter. On Twitter, I follow mostly about KPOP hahaha, this is where I keep myself update on what’s new about my favorite KPOP groups. Similar to Instagram if you keep on following certain users, Twitter will also suggest similar users that you may have interest in.

As my anxiety grew because of this Pandemic, I realized that I don’t really need these kinds of negative environment and one of this is Facebook. I tried to limit my News information and I also just focus on what inspires me as of the moment which truly helped me for the past few months. I guess, it helps to have the right platform to use if you still want to be connected thru social media.

This is Sew Naiz

So lately I have decided to pursue my passion for sewing. I also finally started to create some items for my sister’s online shop and I honestly feel so pleased with how things are turning out. There are a lot of sellers and online businesses nowadays and I must say that the hardwork that these bakers, cook, craftsmen etc., put into creating their product is no Joke. The incredible feeling of showing and selling your own handmade products really brings out a sense of accomplishment.

 

I loveee creating and making things. The end result always makes my heart flutter with excitement. Now I know what it feels to sell or to give something that you worked hard for. The most amazing thing here is that I enjoyed doing it. More on this, Sewing somehow helped me to distract my thoughts from the pressing issues that we see on social media nowadays. It makes me think of what style, design or what to cut and how to cut the fabrics instead of dwelling and making myself anxious over things that I cannot really control. And this is exactly what I need now. No pressure Just doing something that you like.

 

I also share these creations on my Instagram and Facebook and the amount of chats from friends that I received saying that they also what to learn how to sew is really surprising. Some even bought their own sewing machines and I feel so proud that somehow I get to influence my friends into doing and learning something new and unlocking those skills that they have. When I created my @thisissewnaiz instagram account, I find it a struggle to see girls/women who enjoy creating and sewing like me but as I continue, I am slowly seeing that Sewing is not that underrated.

 

I still have a long way to go before I become someone as experienced as my Mom but this pandemic is a devastating hole that we all experience now and somehow sewing is one of the things that keeps me out of that hole. This pandemic is really taking its toll with our mental health and any kind of productivity can help but you don’t need to feel any pressure, just do what you feel like doing on your own time.

Anyway, What have you unlocked this Pandemic? Is there something you want to learn and do?

Our “New Normal”

Oh wow its August. Just like that and we are now on our 5th month working from home. Funny how I used to wish for me to have a job where I can work from home and take care of Mason. And look! I am now working from home!! Honestly not the best time for this to happen but this is the new norm now ( I somehow miss our office)

Our new Normal consists of waking up, cooking lunch, watching tv, playing with Mason, Mason’s naptime while I work ( all of these while Bryan is sleeping) late in the afternoon, I’ll have to wake them up and it’s his time to look after Mason while I work. This routine is our weekday schedule but weekend schedule is almost the same except that I dont have any work and I get to sew when Mason is asleep. Everything is repetitive now that I dont really look forward to anything anymore.

There’s too much that is going on outside but we can’t really do anything because of pandemic quarantine guidelines. Everyday that I open my social media accounts, I get devastated with news and this new norm just adds up the tension that I feel. I am sure its just not me who’s getting mentally challenged by this new norm.

Well, I guess I just miss the Old normal when we get excited to go out every weekend, when we can still wear our favorite clothes and socialize with friends and family, when we can eat outside and enjoy the view, when we can still stay out late and not wear any masks or face shields.

Not sure when we’ll have answers to this pandemic but we just have to stick to our new normal now and just hope that at the end of this pandemic we’ll come out stronger both mentally and physically and we’ll never take anything for granted again. 😩

I am sewing again!!

Ever since we moved and started life with our new family, my partner and I have been trying to explore new hobbies that captures our interests. He started on his wood works and cooking while I explored on baking, make-up and cooking. I just can’t believe the amount spent on the baking materials that I bought but ended up not being used at all. Who else? lol.

Since last year my sister has been encouraging me to pursue baking or sewing (so I can sell on her online shop) but I just had no time and I really think baking is not for me! All the measuring that does not seem to match at all and dishes to clean after messing up the kitchen does not make me satisfied. Sorry!

When The pandemic and work from home started, I was occupied for the first 2 months with cooking different dishes, I tried to somehow make myself feel like I’m in a restaurant (except there’s no rest part here haha!). Before the pandemic we used to go out every weekend but now there’s really no place to go. Cooking has become a part of my daily task that does not make me look forward to it anymore. I remembered I started making masks (the current trend due to the pandemic) then next thing I know I was scrolling the internet and found this cute cami top with tie straps. I thought it would be easy to do then I researched her Instagram and found the essentials club! I just love her works and DIYs then boom, I bought all fabrics that I found on Instagram. LOL

I started first week of June and I got obsessed and started creating and making more. I know I needed more practice but my creations are not bad that either (maybe for a beginner?) Even made an instagram account all for my sewing photo drop (@thisissewnaiz). Although this is not something that can be source of my income (for now? Hopefully when I’m good at it then this can be a source of income) I guess this skill will do come in handy when the time comes.

Nevertheless, I am just so stoked that I was able to finally start my sewing journey and eventually clean up my closet and have an all personally sewn wardrobe. Who would have thought that I will be able to relive my forgotten love for sewing? I guess it is never too late to always start a new hobby or unlock a long awaited skill.

What have you been up to lately? Is there any new skills or hobby that you have learned during this pandemic?

Vlogging, Blogging and Social Media Influencers

What are your thoughts about these?

I am honestly tempted to be one and to do it. I used to be on tumblr blogging, re-blogging and doing other girls the same age as me were doing. But we all know, vlogging is the new thing here (aside from the fame, it becomes a source of income for some) I mean who wouldn’t want to get attention and earning at the side? There is always a feeling that I want to.. but I am shy and not as confident like other girls and moms. Sometimes I get the urge to really push what I would want to show people but at times I get really really sheepish. I feel like my emotional side will not be able to handle if I will hear some negative criticisms about what I do.

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I have a lot of friends who entered these social media platforms and I truly in awe of how they were able to pursue and succeed on it. I guess, passion will also have to be a part of it. I envy some of them but I feel like vlogging is not for everyone including me. Meanwhile Blogging silently and writing here on my blog gives me a room to vent things out that I can not do on my other social media accounts.. Definitely my online diary that I do not intend to really expose to everyone that I know. Also, I feel like not everyone will like my stories, really. lol.

Recently I have been using Instagram a lot. I think Facebook and Instagram stories gives way for most people to interact with friends and show what their current interests are. For me it serves as memories as well that I would want to look back when I get like really old you know. I like the attention but I doubt if there’s too much attention. For now, I am contented with what makes me happy and that’s just posting what I like.

 

 

Working from Home

Its been 2 months and we are still on quarantine. I honestly lost track of time and I usually count the months and not the days anymore. I spent my birthday at home with my two lovies and it was just so intimate. Not as what I have planned in mind but you just got to do what you can during this time.

Anyway, two months passed and I am still working from home. I think that its both a curse and a gift at the same time. A gift because I get to work at the comfort of our home, no need to take risks and commute just to go to the office. I feel so relieved and blessed that I am working in a company that is concerned about its employees. I am so very happy and thankful that atleast, i get to keep my work during this difficult time in the midst of the pandemic. I know not everyone is given this kind of chance (I know there has been massive lay offs globally and I am one of the few lucky ones to still be able to work and save money)

Well the curse part is my “momma heart” . Everytime I need to work, I feel a bit of a tinged whenever my son asks to play but I can’t. It also breaks me when I have a meeting and I can’t attend to his needs. At night he always asks if I am done with my work and he likes it when I get to just sit down with him even for a few minutes before I get back to work. I always have this guilt feeling that I am not doing more for him when its my work time. I also feel sorry for my partner (who is also working from home on a graveyard shift) that he needs to wake up at a very awkward time just to look after our son while I work.

I guess your can never really have it all. There will always be pros and cons in anything. My partner keeps me encouraged and tells me to never feel any guilt because this is all just temporary (atleast just until we get back to our “new” normal lives)

What’s your WFH schedule? Do you find it easy to work at home or not?

On lockdown

What have you been up to lately?

We are currently on extended community quarantine. Cases have been going up and i dont know until when we’ll be like this. But what I do know is we need to be safe and this is the only way that helps.

There are a lot of things that I am feeling down about for the past few days and in the coming days as we extend this quarantine.

Vacation plans cancelled

Birthday (not cancelled 😂) but celebrations with family will be.

I miss my mom

I miss eating out

I miss shopping

And i just miss everything we used to do. But these are just petty things but still valid feelings.

However, amidst all these cancelled things and plans. I am most thankful for my healthy family. For our jobs that we get to work from home, for our daily food and for all the friends who checks for us from time to time.

Its okay to feel sad, mad or even scared and anxious but dont forget to be grateful and think of the good things that you have while we experience this pandemic.

Aside from being thankful, Ive been distracting my self with a lot of cooking, baking and sometimes sewing DIYs. Maybe I’ll post some here.

How about you? How do you cope with the stress during this pandemic and quarantine?

Call the shots

Time just flew by me and voila! It’s already March. 😊

As much as I want to be consistent in updating this Blog. It is just hard to do. Work has been overwhelming, I am pretty much occupied with the Project that we are working on. How I wish this ends soon but I really do not have any clue on how and when will this end.

January was disappointing, and February is a mix of extremes as well. I am very much concerned and worried about this NCOV-19 Global spread. Numbers of cases keep on adding up daily and it has become the scare of the year already.  We’re suppose to have our first family Out of town this year (July) but I am really scared about this. I’m scared for my son and most especially my parents. I just wish everything will be stable and cases would minimize and recover soon. Let us all pray for this to end.

We also got worried and stressed with how Mason is acting up at school. He’s becoming defiant and won’t even sit still. He keeps on saying No to everything. He follows instructions when its just us but at school, he’s a runner, like really, I mean it. He’s keeps on running and won’t sit down for any activity. He would at times but only when he likes to. His dad and I got really concerned that we had to implement new rules in the house and some changes in how we discipline him.

On a more personal note, February was also a very productive Month for me, and for us. We celebrated Valentines day by eating out as a family and opening our First Joint account. We also opened up MP2 investment and I guess, everything is going according to plan in terms of our plan to save up. I am so proud at how good he is doing in saving and preparing for our plans. I’m just keeping my fingers crossed and hope for the best. I have asked him to follow LAW OF ATTRACTION and we put our Long term Goals on our Refrigerator so we can see it everyday 😊. How do you keep track of your Goals?

And ohhhh I also lost weight by Intermittent Fasting, I actually started late November last year and I tried to follow the plan through December but it was really hard due to the celebrations for Christmas and New year. January came and I still am losing some weight until February (although I am not clean eating, there’s still some sweets and lots of carbs) But I am really in awe that I was able to maintain my current weight which is 50-51kg (From almost 60kg). A lot of my friends also noticed the changes and I plan to clean eat hopefully this Month.

Its only March and we are already progressing with the Financial goals and my Weight Goal.

I hope that this summer, I’ll be able to pursue my plan of learning how to sew and more online learning. I’ll add teaching Mason more as well this summer.

2020!!

 

Hello 2020!!

Almost 5 months since my last update and upon opening my WordPress. I found that I have been journaling my life for 8 years now. Happy Anniversary studdedthoughts!!

It’s amazing how time flies but what’s more amazing is how much we have changed. (Think back to 2010—and boom mind blown!!)

But to be honest, I am a bit disappointed with my 2019 self, a lot of my Goals did not come into fruition and I lack the discipline to do them. I got really careless (about money) and stress really took over me especially for the last few months of the year.

Looking back in 2019. Definite highlight would be when I went to Japan!!! Although I did not go with my family, it was something memorable because it’s my first time to go without my son and it’s also my first travel out of the country since I had Mason. One thing that made me really happy and proud would be the accomplishments done by my partner. He was really productive this year and although I lack productiveness. I felt like what he have accomplished is my accomplishments as well so somehow it feels like it is still a win-win situation.

Well, 2020 welcomed me with a BANG!! Like really a Bang of negativity!!! I lost my phone last weekend and this wrecked my budget for the year. I needed to buy a new phone and the hassle and late night thinking got me super stressed.  Although this is not the best way to enter the year I am still looking forward for 2020.

I have a lot of things going on recently (well mostly at work though) but in my mind I have tons of things that I really really want to do.

Thinking about my GOALS.. I would like to focus more on saving enough money, learning how to sew, attending online classes and losing weight. These are the specific Goals that I would like to prioritize for this year.

 

Wish me luck!!!

Have at least One Person

I worry for a lot of things. I overthink, I get stress easily and I really get into mess most of the time. But guess what? Surprisingly, I always pull through no matter what. Nope! I don’t have any super powers or not all my stars are invariably aligned but one thing I do know is that I always have One Person to help me.

 

I think that as a person, it’s important that we identify that we cannot do all things. We’ll never understand everything and not everything will fall into our hands unexpectedly. Most of the time a person gets really depressed is because they always seem to keep it all in a bottle. They seem to  take everything and are afraid to expand their thoughts and share it to others, it could be because they are scared or they think that they can handle it.

 

But truth is, we will always need someone. It’s a Human Need. I’m not saying that you need everyone but all I’m saying is.. ONE Person is enough. That One person do not really need to help us financially (good if you have one though hehehe!) or physically but that One Person is enough to help you overcome your suffocating thoughts.

 

Aside from my Partner, I have one person at the office (in times that I feel like office work, my boss or everyone at work is pushing me to my limit) in which I confide to, to help me broaden my thoughts, gather my wits and control my emotions. This person lets me see the other side or putting yourself in that person’s shoes situation.  I have one person who I talk to when my partner and I have a misunderstanding, she listens and gives sensible advices. Simple but it works!

 

Do you have that ONE person?