I don’t regret going out with you.
We were young, and I was still a very naive girl.
I was stubborn and stupid. I knew that you were everything that I wanted, but for some reason I thought that relationships weren’t supposed to be comfortable—I thought they were supposed to be that nervous butterfly feeling. I didn’t yet realize that if you don’t feel nervous in a situation, it usually means you’re where you ought to be.
I know that I’ve lost you.
I talk to guys, but when I sit down and try to figure out what went wrong and what I’m looking for I realize that I’m looking for you.
You were perfect. You are perfect. You’re confident and funny and you don’t even know how sweet you are. You’re also one of the most genuine people I’ve ever met.
Those times on was how much you reached for me when you were asleep. Whenever I moved or shifted you always pulled me back to be close. You kissed my head,my shoulder,my hair. It’s just really amazing.
It’s great how close I still feel for you after us being together in a relationship for almost 4 years and we even had a long distance relationship, but we made it work.
You know, I always saw you as the happy ending, but I never really realized that maybe I passed up on that a long time ago. It really scares me to think that I have the ability to completely ruin my chances with you.