I have been so busy these past few months. A lot of things happened and i was not able to keep track with most of it. But, on a general perspective I learned something new and something about myself.
For the past months, as I have written here in my personal blog, i suffered from betrayal and my self confidence dropped into its all time low. I felt unattractive because he cheated on me. For the first time, I felt anxious.
Then, I started to focus on myself, although weightloss is still a struggle (my weight is still within the normal side but I really want to loose all those tummy fats!!) I decided to do something new to myself, to redeem my lost confidence and the feeling of being ugly. It all started one day when I was browsing youtube and started seeing make up vlogs. How tos here and there. I clicked Michelle Dy’s one vlog about simple on the go make up and I had this lightbulb moment!
You see, i really do not know how to use make up. Powder foundation and lipstick that’s it and im good to go. For 29 years that was my mantra. I never plucked my eyebrows, never put eyeliner all by myself and only wears full make up on big occasions (well, of course some else does the make up) So make up was a bit out of my league and I was really scared at first.
Next day, I bought my first ever eyebrow pencil from etude. I initially had different trials and errors from shaving or plucking my eyebrows but after so many attempts and too many pencil drawings, weeks passed (yes weeks!) I was finally able to perfect my brows! (Well, not perfect but something the perfectly fits my preference!)
Then everything went too fast! I started buying make up online, next was the eyeliner from skinpotions, the meowliner. They were marketing it as an easy way to perfect the winged eyeliner by stamping your way to it and then connecting it to your liners. I was surprised at how easy it is to use. I used to think that I will never ever learn how to use it but I was able to do it!
The next thing on my list was a lip tint! I love lipsticks but I really think that lip tints are more natural to look at and easier to use. I bought my constant companion from banilla co. Then as the days move, my make up kit started to get full. I then bought a new powder foundation loreal infallible, and my favorite so far caresse cushion lip gradation from loreal! Really want to buy every color but it is so expensive! It became my go to blush on and lip gradation after putting on my liptint. Also bought a new eyebrow pencil from loreal (i love loreal!) And finally the last one that I bought was a mascara from mumuso.
There are still so much from my make up list that I wanted to buy and learn how to use, highlighted palette, liquid foundation and eye shadow pallete and other essentials.
A lot of people started to notice (especially at work) that somethings is new especially on my appearance. It really feels great to received compliments on how I look and how my look have improved. I been receiving positive feedbacks like “oh your brows looked good!”, ” what did you use with your eye? I liked it!”.
I used to think that make up is only for those who have low confidence (maybe due to pimples or skin conditions to cover them up) or for those who just wants attention but based from my experience, make up can not only change or enhance you facial features but mostly it helps someone to somehow fix on what’s inside of him or her.
Make up really helped me a lot during those times that I was about to lose everything. So glad that I am better than before because I was able to divert my negative feelings and create something for myself by using and learning how to use make up.
Now, I have high respect and I admire every women who chose to wear make up (that does not mean that I think less of those who do not use any!!) Natural beauty is and will always be the best, make ups are there to enhance and give emphasis to the beauty that was given not only outside but definitely on the inside.