Be inspired!

Second batch of the motivational typos that I made using Biggy’s  nature and landscape photos! Go on, be inspired!

 

Been really out of mood lately. I’ll make up and do more of this next time.

Happy weekend!

God is working …

God is working things out for you, even if you don’t feel it. Have faith and be thankful. Where faith and hope grows, miracles blossom

I just wish I can put this in my mind and in my heart. I’m having nonstop worries and doubts, Life is testing me again and I’m exaggerating (as always). I keep on having excuses which is a positive sign of laziness and I’m forming pity feelings for myself. All the negative energy are all leading to my way. I keep on whining but it’s no good and of no use. Its confusing when you can’t determine if the signs are for you to give up or just a test to see how long you could hold on. I’m so depressed. I don’t know what I want anymore. Oh Lord God I need your guidance.

Keeping motivated

I’ve been doing Inspirational/ Motivational typos if that’s what you can call them just recently because I was really bored and I think it keeps me to stay positive from all the career issues that I’ve been having.

Still nothing to do and been sitting in front of the computer all day.

I’ve run out of photos to use so I decided to use the landscape photos taken by Biggy! =)

Tell me what you liked best!

I just hope I can all use these tips and encouragements that I’ve put in the pictures! =))

If you want more you can also visit. bluefluffyclouds.tumblr.com and follow if you have a tumblr account too! =)

Milk tea time

Here in the Philippines, Milk tea is becoming a real trend. You can see new Milk tea stalls and franchises everywhere. They are like mushrooms that sprout anywhere! And since Kae is not really a big fan. I asked her to try it for the first time. I’m not a fan either but once I liked the flavor, I will always crave for it no matter what. (I can still remember the taste of that Kuching 3 layer tea!)

Anyway, we dropped by Top tea! It’s also my first time trying that franchise and I must say that it’s really good.

The ambiance is also good.

We ordered Sweet Caramel Milk Tea and the very Popular Wintermelon Milk tea

Obviously, the spelling of Kae’s name  is incorrect. hehe

 

 

Oh!! by the way,I love Kae’s choker! Planning to buy one for myself next time!

Some ramdom shots  before we leave the place:

 

 

Another, Fun-tastic bonding! =)

A little Saturday night special

Everything was unplanned. It was Saturday Morning when they texted me that they wanted to watch a movie. But, everything changed because we did not find any good movie to watch. So, instead we just ate out and decided to drink since we’re all having some problems and issues in life! haha. Unfortunately, Teddy, our friend left early and he doesn’t want to drink. Actually, it’s our first time to drink, we are friends for almost 13 years now and we’ve never tried drinking together, we tried but it was not this heavy that we need to stay up all morning. Body ache, Bowel problem and Sore throat, but no regrets. =)

This alcohol is not really hard but that’s all I can drink. haha!

And, I was not expecting it but Biggy showed up and saved my day! He was worried because I’m not really used to drinking too much. I love you!

Everything was all about catching up with each other, we also made plans about our future group getaways and we talked about our careers, goals, problems and as well as reminiscing all over again our High school days! One thing I can say about them, they know me well, they know everything about me, my family, my sisters feud, where I live, my skills and capacities, my quirkiness and everything that bothers me.  It was one of those times, that again, you realize how life is so perfect with your friends beside you. We don’t usually see each other but everytime that we do, there’s always a huge smile on my face.

The friends who grew up with you deserve a special respect. The ones who stuck by you shoulder to shoulder, in a time where nothing was certain, all life lay ahead, and every road led home.

– The Wonder Years

These are the times..

These are the times where I wanted someone to talk to me so bad and just be left alone at the same time. The times where I usually drown myself watching Zombiefied movies to somehow divert my attention.  I’m not sure where I should put myself. I have no plan at all or maybe I got tired planning things that never really happen. This is not new to me, I can feel it almost every year since I’ve graduated and I’m so fed up already. Maybe even my friends are also tired of hearing all these dramas that I’ve been saying. Yes, I’m one of those stereotypes who hide everything by smiling, giggling, laughing and even by telling jokes that makes no sense at all. I’m usually  found inflating my ego to the point of nausea.

The truth is I’m scared of her.

I always carry out the pressure that she makes me feel. She’s my weakness and this weakness is dragging me away from her. Why do I always feel like I have to live up to her expectations? Do I even have a choice? All I want is to have a goal, a plan but I’m scared that everything will be washed out again and ends up with her blaming me all my life. ='(

Life… is not …

Life… is not simply a series of exciting new ventures. The future is not always a whole new ball game. There tends to be unfinished business. One trails all sorts of things around with one, things that simply won’t be got rid of. —Anita Brookner

For the past 3 years, since I graduated from the University and took the Nursing Licensure Exam. I realized only one thing. My plans are continuously changing. While browsing my old blog account, I remembered my past plans and the things that I wanted to do.

I remembered the time when I was planning of taking up masterals. It was my original plan but then I got really fond with my work especially by the time that I was earning my salary. It was not that big but it was a big deal for me. I also had plans of having my own online business or store, especially about clothes and accessories. We bought equipments and studied sewing but we were not able to pursue it. I still have plans on having my own business but maybe not this year.

Months ago, I had plans of going abroad, but I realized that it’s not easy to do it. They said, when you work abroad, it’s a battle between loneliness and depression. I know that it’s hard but I’m willing to take a risk. I still have plans to go abroad and if I had a chance, I would definitely grab it. It’s not all about the money but also a chance to showcase my skills and to challenge my abilities especially when you’re far from your loved ones. I’ve never been independent, I don’t know how to cook and I’m still not good in doing household chores like washing clothes and Ironing them (although, we don’t usually do that anymore.) I think, working abroad will really enhance my skills and who knows, I might even be surprised of the things that I can do.

For now, I just need to focus on finding my next job, I’m really nervous and sometimes, I feel like I’m uncertain on what I feel about what kind of job do I really want. I want to work and explore my options but my parents, my ego and some people are holding me back to Nursing. I can’t help but feel pressured.

Reality bites: Trust

Trusting someone. Do we really need to trust someone? Is it that important? Can you really trust someone wholeheartedly? Without any questions and doubts? Are you brave enough to take a risk and trust someone?

I’ve been betrayed many times, by my friends, special someone and even a family member.

Different aspects and levels but still.. I was betrayed.

The feeling is nothing but awful, it’s like letting them bite you in the ass.  It’s exposing yourself out in the open and letting them have a feast.

Trust makes you vulnerable but it also opens us to new possibilities and chances. If you trust too much, you will be deceived and if not you’ll just let the opportunities pass. You have to remind yourself not to open up and be too honest with people. They said that “The best proof of love is trust”, therefore you have to trust yourself in order to love yourself. I can’t really apply that on relationships though because for me Trust in relationships are a bit overrated and overused that it becomes vague and meaningless.

I think that trusting is not about the other person, it’s not about how good he/she treats you because I can assure you that.. someday, somehow they will betray you in any way without you even knowing it.

I’m not a hater neither am I a bitter person, I just lack the will to trust others anymore. I believe that it’s important to trust God first and then yourself.

Cursed is the man who trusts in man And makes flesh his strength, Whose heart departs from the Lord.” Jeremiah 17:5