Today, I made a decision to pass my resignation letter. I like to think that I made that decision rationally and not because of urgent or sudden rush of emotions. It was not that easy, it was my first job ever and I owe everything to that Job, especially the times that I almost gave up looking for a job.
I graduated as a Nursing student and I’m a registered Nurse but I decided to work as an Online English Tutor for Koreans because at that time it was really hard to look for a job as a nurse in hospitals. I stayed there for a year (not bad for a first job. huh) During my stay in that company, even though I had some offers of working as a Nurse that time, I did not leave…until this month.
At first, I really am having a good time with my Korean Students. They are very cooperative and it’s easy to teach them. I think, I saw the deficiencies of my job on the day that they gave us Editings which is very different or not related to our online tutorials. It was really hard and it’s a lot of work load that they are already maximizing our time and energy. They were pressuring us. I got exhausted. Aside from that, I noticed that the promotions are really slow and we have no salary increment especially for true hard work like what we are doing with the editings. Recently, there had been many changes in the rules and in the management. The management is not really good in organizing things, the schedules for teachers are very confusing and they don’t really care about health matters.
I think, what I will truly miss is the friendship that I built with my co workers. Each has different personalities and attitudes but they are very easy to get along. I think, what I like the most about our office is the home-like feeling that it gives us. We can wear whatever we want and we can eat anytime we want.
Right now, I still have no idea on the next job that I will have, I’m not closing my door about Nursing. If I had chance, I would truly grab it. But, I think I will consider the first opportunity that will come my way. I know it’s not good to look or ask for easy money jobs, however, I can’t help but to wish for that. Some people are really trying to pursue their careers, who doesn’t want that? I envy those who are sure about their path. But now, I want to consider and explore my other options and to test my skills and limitations. It takes courage but it is the right to move.
Acceptance of one’s life has nothing to do with resignation; it does not mean running away from the struggle. On the contrary, it means accepting it as it comes, with all the handicaps of heredity, of suffering, of psychological complexes and injustices.