I am sewing again!!

Ever since we moved and started life with our new family, my partner and I have been trying to explore new hobbies that captures our interests. He started on his wood works and cooking while I explored on baking, make-up and cooking. I just can’t believe the amount spent on the baking materials that I bought but ended up not being used at all. Who else? lol.

Since last year my sister has been encouraging me to pursue baking or sewing (so I can sell on her online shop) but I just had no time and I really think baking is not for me! All the measuring that does not seem to match at all and dishes to clean after messing up the kitchen does not make me satisfied. Sorry!

When The pandemic and work from home started, I was occupied for the first 2 months with cooking different dishes, I tried to somehow make myself feel like I’m in a restaurant (except there’s no rest part here haha!). Before the pandemic we used to go out every weekend but now there’s really no place to go. Cooking has become a part of my daily task that does not make me look forward to it anymore. I remembered I started making masks (the current trend due to the pandemic) then next thing I know I was scrolling the internet and found this cute cami top with tie straps. I thought it would be easy to do then I researched her Instagram and found the essentials club! I just love her works and DIYs then boom, I bought all fabrics that I found on Instagram. LOL

I started first week of June and I got obsessed and started creating and making more. I know I needed more practice but my creations are not bad that either (maybe for a beginner?) Even made an instagram account all for my sewing photo drop (@thisissewnaiz). Although this is not something that can be source of my income (for now? Hopefully when I’m good at it then this can be a source of income) I guess this skill will do come in handy when the time comes.

Nevertheless, I am just so stoked that I was able to finally start my sewing journey and eventually clean up my closet and have an all personally sewn wardrobe. Who would have thought that I will be able to relive my forgotten love for sewing? I guess it is never too late to always start a new hobby or unlock a long awaited skill.

What have you been up to lately? Is there any new skills or hobby that you have learned during this pandemic?

Call the shots

Time just flew by me and voila! It’s already March. 😊

As much as I want to be consistent in updating this Blog. It is just hard to do. Work has been overwhelming, I am pretty much occupied with the Project that we are working on. How I wish this ends soon but I really do not have any clue on how and when will this end.

January was disappointing, and February is a mix of extremes as well. I am very much concerned and worried about this NCOV-19 Global spread. Numbers of cases keep on adding up daily and it has become the scare of the year already.  We’re suppose to have our first family Out of town this year (July) but I am really scared about this. I’m scared for my son and most especially my parents. I just wish everything will be stable and cases would minimize and recover soon. Let us all pray for this to end.

We also got worried and stressed with how Mason is acting up at school. He’s becoming defiant and won’t even sit still. He keeps on saying No to everything. He follows instructions when its just us but at school, he’s a runner, like really, I mean it. He’s keeps on running and won’t sit down for any activity. He would at times but only when he likes to. His dad and I got really concerned that we had to implement new rules in the house and some changes in how we discipline him.

On a more personal note, February was also a very productive Month for me, and for us. We celebrated Valentines day by eating out as a family and opening our First Joint account. We also opened up MP2 investment and I guess, everything is going according to plan in terms of our plan to save up. I am so proud at how good he is doing in saving and preparing for our plans. I’m just keeping my fingers crossed and hope for the best. I have asked him to follow LAW OF ATTRACTION and we put our Long term Goals on our Refrigerator so we can see it everyday 😊. How do you keep track of your Goals?

And ohhhh I also lost weight by Intermittent Fasting, I actually started late November last year and I tried to follow the plan through December but it was really hard due to the celebrations for Christmas and New year. January came and I still am losing some weight until February (although I am not clean eating, there’s still some sweets and lots of carbs) But I am really in awe that I was able to maintain my current weight which is 50-51kg (From almost 60kg). A lot of my friends also noticed the changes and I plan to clean eat hopefully this Month.

Its only March and we are already progressing with the Financial goals and my Weight Goal.

I hope that this summer, I’ll be able to pursue my plan of learning how to sew and more online learning. I’ll add teaching Mason more as well this summer.

Have at least One Person

I worry for a lot of things. I overthink, I get stress easily and I really get into mess most of the time. But guess what? Surprisingly, I always pull through no matter what. Nope! I don’t have any super powers or not all my stars are invariably aligned but one thing I do know is that I always have One Person to help me.

 

I think that as a person, it’s important that we identify that we cannot do all things. We’ll never understand everything and not everything will fall into our hands unexpectedly. Most of the time a person gets really depressed is because they always seem to keep it all in a bottle. They seem to  take everything and are afraid to expand their thoughts and share it to others, it could be because they are scared or they think that they can handle it.

 

But truth is, we will always need someone. It’s a Human Need. I’m not saying that you need everyone but all I’m saying is.. ONE Person is enough. That One person do not really need to help us financially (good if you have one though hehehe!) or physically but that One Person is enough to help you overcome your suffocating thoughts.

 

Aside from my Partner, I have one person at the office (in times that I feel like office work, my boss or everyone at work is pushing me to my limit) in which I confide to, to help me broaden my thoughts, gather my wits and control my emotions. This person lets me see the other side or putting yourself in that person’s shoes situation.  I have one person who I talk to when my partner and I have a misunderstanding, she listens and gives sensible advices. Simple but it works!

 

Do you have that ONE person?

It’s a Social Media Thing

Recently I have blocked a lot of friends/online friends on Facebook, Instagram and Twitter.

One of my Best Friends used to say that she gets really depressed whenever she sees some posts on Facebook about some of our friends becoming successful in their career and their “life”. I must admit that I also feel this too (before) but I have learned to avoid feeling jealous/envy because really it’s all in the mind.

I guess it helped that my partner never really get jealous about other people’s posts on Facebook. I don’t know if it is what he really feel but we had one conversation where he mentioned that he doesn’t really care, he likes to gossip on facebook though hehehe. But he doesn’t compare in terms of “success”.

Also, I must press that not everything you see online is real, even stories and news are not always true.

But, its hard since we live in a world where social media is domineering. As they say, If you are not on Facebook, you’re not existing. Take it or leave it.

Anyway, I post a lot! I can’t help it, I like seeing old photos, memories and I think, Facebook and Instagram helps me to restore these memories. Not to mention how I loveeee posting or sharing the special moments of my Son. But what really bothers me is when people start dropping sarcastic personal comments about what I post on social media (well, at least they say it in front of me) I know I should have seen it coming because I am all out there but do you really need to provide comments offensively? To think that most of my posts are in my stories and you have to option to view it or not.

I know I can’t really control what they say or think  (also I don’t really care what other people think, I will post what I want and you do have to option to view it or not) so my best option is to mute my posts from them to avoid getting their unwanted attention and comments.  So if you are my friend online and you can still see my posts/stories then you’re not who Im talking about. 🙂 🙂 🙂

It would be good if we support everyone whatever they want or even post (unless its socially offensive) but putting them down without any valid reason is a big NO NO NO.

What’s your say on social media? Do you post a lot? Or not? Have you received sarcastic comments from people just because you posted something?

 

Quick Look Through my Month

Whew its been a long since I blogged and I must say I didn’t really miss it.LOL

But I realized one thing, when I write its mostly because I am overwhelmed with feelings (good or bad) that I sometimes cannot contain it, I end up writing about it and it makes me feel relieved to somehow let go of the things that I am feeling. Nothing negative here, it really just shows how writing can make me feel and It helps most of the time.

 

For the Past Month, I have been super busy. A lot of celebrations happened inside and outside of our family. But, the most memorable one was celebrating Mason’s Third Birthday.

We had prepare a lot of dinosaur things and gifts for him. He had an amazing Three-rex birthday (totally obsessed with dinosaurs!)

He also celebrated his birthday at his School.

Yeap! Nothing grand, just pure happiness and celebration of his life with us.

He has improved a lot!! Even his teacher says this to me all the time. He is becoming very naughty too.

Although some of his actions is really frustrating, he brings too much joy so I end up letting it all go. 🙂

 

Another thing is, I’ve been saving a lot but I am also in debt!!

Adulting and Parenthood is really not a joke. There are bills everywhere!!!

Just thinking about all those single Moms out there makes me feel sad. I am just so thankful that I have Bryan to share all this financial needs with.

It’s hard to be a Mom and give everything to him (and for myself!) But, I really like to move on from all this debt too. Hmp. I am working on it and hopefully before the year ends, I’ll get back on track.

Rant: Bring your own plate

Beware this is a rant.

Two weekends ago we were invited to a Luau Birthday Party. Of course, I somehow prepared what my son and partner would wear on that day because we wouldn’t want to look out of place.

Anyway, we left our house at around 4:30 as the event is a 5-9pm party. We did not expect the traffic and unfortunately we spent 3 hours inside the car. When we arrived that’s around 8:30, they are still having their games, we hurried to meet the Mom of the Birthday Girl, said our apologies, gave our gift and greeted them. She said that she was also worried as she heard that the traffic was really heavy. She offered us to go to the Catering section and eat.

I asked Bryan to find a seat and I will get the food. When I went to the buffet section, I noticed that little to no food was left, only a few pasta, left out dishes and no more rice. I asked the waiter or staff for the Plate. He said that there was no more plate. I waited because I thought that maybe he will get a plate for me since there’s still some pasta but to no avail, he did not move at all. After a few minutes, I asked again, and he said that there was no plate available. I hurried to Bryan and asked him to talk to the catering staff because no one seems to assist me.

He came up to me angry and really pissed. He said that no one even tried to help at all. We were very hungry already and no one, not even the one who invited us assisted us. To think we have a baby with us who’s also hungry. Not more than 10 minutes and we decided to go out and eat to the nearest restaurant.

It was a disaster. I do not want to attend to her party ever again. Oh dear, that was a 3 hours commute and we just felt full of shit.

A book of Letters

 

Yep, this is my first post about my 50 questions. I know I made a previous post regarding how I love to read especially when I was in my Junior years. I used to go with my sister to a nearby bookstore every weekend after church and she would buy me any books for kids that’s for sale.

There’s one book that will always be first on my mind and it’s Dear Mr. Henshaw by Beverly Cleary, I have a lot of Beverly Cleary books but this was one is definitely for  keeps. When I watched the movie “Stuck in Love”, there’s one scene where in the two main characters were on a date and they shared what is their Favorite book, turns out the characters both loved the book Dear Mr. Henshaw. My eyes lit up as I remembered the book. Well, the hopeless romantic in me wished that I could meet someone who shares the same kind of passion in reading. Anyway.. lol.

Dear Mr Henshaw is about a little boy named, Leigh Botts from a broken family. Together with his Mother  they moved to a new town and new school. Everything happened after a school assignment in which they would need to write a letter to their chosen Author and for him it was Mr Henshaw, from their constant exchange of Letters, the two characters formed an unexpected bond.

For me writing is very essential. I love writing! (well, the reason why I have a blog) and what I liked about this book is that it was able to show how far a letter or someone’s writing can go. When we write, all the feelings, questions and thoughts are being constructed, it is some form of release and somehow creates a compelling story that everyone can relate to.

I do not read anymore like when I was younger (maybe due to technology and stuffs) but if I have time, I would definitely go back to reading. I wish someday, I can extend this amazing interest to my son.

“De Sooner De Better De Later De Letter De Madder I Getter”
― Beverly Cleary, Dear Mr. Henshaw

50 Questions

As I have always wanted, my blog has been and will always be as personal as possible. I do not even share this to my other social media accounts as I would want to keep all my rants and thoughts away from those people that I know. Away from criticism and unsolicited advises especially from people that pretends to care but really just wants or are looking for someone to be the topic of their afternoon coffee meet ups and random gossips.
Well Anyways, I thought to somehow distract myself from thinking of my current issues in life. I found these 50 Questions (50 Questions To Ask Someone If You Wanna Know Who They Really Are) from the Overrated Thought Catalog haha.
1. What is your favorite book?
2. Does your job make you happy?
3. What did you want to be when you were younger?
4. Why did your last relationship end?
5. What’s been your biggest mistakes so far in life and what did you learn?
6. Where is your favorite place in the entire world to go?
7. What is your top five favorite movies?
8. What are some of your favorite songs?
9. What qualities do you admire about your parents?
10. How would you describe your best friend? 
11. What’s your favorite hobby to do alone?
12. What’s something you can’t go a day without doing?
13. What’s the most spontaneous thing you’ve done lately?
14. What’s the craziest thing you’ve ever done for love?
15. What’s your biggest pet peeve?
16. Why do you think you’re still single?
17. What accomplishment are you most proud of?
18. What is one dream you have yet to accomplish?
19. What is your greatest fear?
20. What are three things you value most about a person?
21. Who are five people you are closest with?
22. What is the greatest struggle you’ve overcome?
23. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
24. What’s the most exciting thing that’s happened this past year?
25. What’s your favorite beer?
26. What’s one thing that bothers you most about the world today?
27. Who are you closer with your mom or your dad?
28. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?
29. If you could change one thing about the world what would it be?
30. Who was your favorite teacher and why?
31. What sport did you fall in love with?
32. What is the weirdest thing about you?
33. What was your longest relationship?
34. What would your best friend say is your best quality?
35. Who is your favorite historical figure?
36. What made you choose the college you went to?
37. If you could tell your former self one thing right now what would it be?
38. What food could you not live without?
39. Dogs or Cats?
40. What’s closest you’ve ever come to being arrested?
41. What was your best birthday?
42. What’s one thing you wish you knew how to do?
43. Where’s one place you’d like to go that you haven’t been?
44. What was the last book you read? And When?
45. Where do you usually get your news?
46. What are some of your own personal goals in the next 5 years?
47. What would you consider your greatest accomplishment so far?
48. If you could get away with anything that you do?
49. Who is your greatest hero?
50. What’s the greatest risk you’ve ever taken?
These questions are as direct as they should be. But, I am thinking that while answering them, well might as well make that each question will serve as a blog entry for the coming days. I hope I’ll be able to complete this! 

What’s in my bag?

I’m one of those disorganized person that you will ever know. I’m lazy when it comes to cleaning or arranging my things especially inside my bag. I just put everything inside and I’m off.

Today, I did some cleaning and here are the things that you would usually see inside my bag, I think that this will also give you an idea of me as a person.haha!

First is the Umbrella, I hate bringing an umbrella or even using one. But, I have no choice because it’s rainy season already so I have to bring this all the time.
As you can see, I also bring tissue, yes a bathroom tissue. I don’t know if it’s bad to use on the face but I do. I don’t bring a handkerchief with me because I always lose them. So, I just settled with tissue, but the problem now is I tend to use too much of it and sometimes I throw the used ones inside the bag. Gross?haha!

The small bottle with green cap, it’s my cologne. I don’t use perfumes because the smell is too strong, I like to smell as natural as possible. It’s has double purpose for me, I sometimes use it as an alternate for ethyl alcohol.

The red one is my ponytail, I bought it just recently because I lost my last one. I chose red color because I bought it during my birthday.

I have natural curls and now that my hair are growing, more natural curls are coming out and they are very hard to manage, so for those who also has curly or wavy hair like mine, I would totally recommend for you to bring a Hair polish, mine’s Vitress.

Here in the Philippines there are so many mobile companies. But, I’m not really particular with phones (I’m not a techie person), as long as I can call and text or even use wifi, I’m already fine with it. I have two sim cards so I needed to use two cellphones. The yellow one is Dual sim however, it’s mouthpiece is broken now so I have to use my other phone. I’m still thinking of buying a new one.

My house key! My house key is with a Mahjong keychain, my brother made that using a real Mahjong piece. I need to bring it all the time because most of the time there are no people here in our house so no one would open the door for me.

Usb, I don’t usually bring this one but today, I did because I needed to save some files from the office.

My Philips MP3 with A4tech earphones, he’s name is choco, my boyfriend gave it to me, I think almost 2 years ago. I’m not sure but I remember it was his Christmas gift for me. That time, I was planning to buy an Ipod, because I got my ipod shuffle broken back when I was still in the University, since then I’ve been using my phone to listen to music. So, since I was bragging about how I wanted to have an MP3, he suprisingly bought me one. It’s very durable maybe because of it’s size and weight.

Nichido matte lipstick and concealer. I’ve been using Nichido matte lisptick for 5 months now, I used to have just a lip tint because I always look really pale, but they always fade off really fast so I changed into a lipstick.

Maybelline Natural face powder, I love this face powder because it’s not sticky on the face unlike my past face powder. And lastly, Vicks! Hehehe! I just recently bought this because I always feel a little dizzy, especially when I ride buses and taxis, I’m not liking the smell of their aircon so I need to bring this.

So there, just a few things that keeps me going everyday.  Hey! what’s in your bag?

Wanderlust

This year, I promised myself that If I have a chance and time I would go to different places and just be mesmerized by the awesome scenery it can offer.

I want to explore new things and gain new experiences.

Wanderlust. A strong desire for or impulse to wander or travel and explore the world.

This is a very expensive desire, right?haha. But, money should be out of the way if you really want to explore and wander the world.

I envy those people who get to travel every month or even every week but they don’t seem to enjoy and be captured by the chance that they have.  They don’t even know how lucky they are to be able to see the beauty of this world.

Right now, I’m starting to get out more and to go to other places here in our country to be able to see and enjoy the things that we are proud of. Someday, I will be able to travel other countries and cities.