Self Health persecution

Have you ever had that feeling like you are sick but  you hope that really not?

Like you feel pain all over your body, stomach ache, back ache, headache and you’re nauseous and no, you’re not making it up, you actually feel all those things but you try to hide it and ignore because you’re too scared to go to the doctor. You’re paranoid that they may find something unusual with you and your body. Like it’s something serious. You’re getting paranoid and try to shake it off at the same time. You’re trying to stay calm but whenever those pain comes by triggering your body again you panic and you experience heart palpitations.

I’ve been experiencing those things lately and I’m just too scared. My profession is Nursing but still I can’t handle my self whenever I’m sick and unhealthy.

Not good enough

It seems like no matter what happens to me, I always feel like I’m not good enough.

•       I’m not alright, I know I’m not.  I have horrible self-esteem which many people would not think that about me but it’s the honest truth.  Lately I haven’t been feeling that I’m not enough. I’m not good enough, I’m not smart enough, I’m not confident enough and not happy enough
•        I always get the feeling that I’m in between. Whether its good or bad, at the end of the day I still feel bad about myself, and I feel like I’m never going to be happy with myself.

No, I’m not alright. I’m not okay.