It was dreadful for us. I had high hopes for 2024. I made goals and I was really hoping to have a good head start but all I got was problem after problem.
January has just ended and if felt like forever!
We welcomed 2024 with all of four of us being sick. Work related problems, financial problems, finn’s clingy phase and my parent’s house issues.
I just want to dissolve (if only) 😭 I just don’t know where to start. Everything is not going according to plan and it just not what I expected. It was really draining that even my skin is reacting. I had allergies and acne.
It’s hard to keep on being positive in times like this but I am holding that this is just a phase. I may not understand why this is happening or maybe I am just exaggerating but it is really exhausting and I just want something to look forward to 😭
Yesterday, I was scrolling thru Instagram and I saw this post about Luke 12: 22-32 about scarcity, generosity and abundance.
Luke 12:22-34
“And He said to His disciples, ‘For this reason I tell you, don’t be anxious about your life, what you will eat; and don’t be anxious about your body, what clothes you put on. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothing. Ponder the ravens, for they don’t sow seed or reap a harvest; they have no storerooms or barns, and yet God feeds them; how much more valuable you are than the birds! And which of you by worrying can add an hour to his life’s span? And if you cannot do even a very little thing, why do you worry about other matters? Ponder the lilies, how they grow: they don’t toil or spin clothes; but I tell you, not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass in the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, how much more will He clothe you? You who trust God so little! And do not seek what you will eat and what you will drink, and don’t foster your anxiety. For all these things the nations of the world eagerly seek; and your Father knows that you need these things. But seek His kingdom, and these things will be granted to you. Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has chosen gladly to give you the kingdom. Sell your possessions and give to the poor; make yourselves money belts which do not wear out, an unfailing treasure in heaven, where no thief comes near nor moth destroys. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.'”
That you don’t need to feel anxious and worried because there is enough for everyone and that often we’re the ones who need our eyes opened to see God’s generosity in creation.
I feel anxious and worried because I felt like I am losing out and everyone is having their own piece of abundance while I am here having all these setbacks. It made me think that Just because everyone is progressing does not mean that I won’t be. We all have our own piece and timing as everything is well planned by God. Does not mean that they had it first, nothing will be left for me. I have my own piece and abundance it is about to come soon as long as I keep on sharing and waiting in the promise of God.
I honestly cried while I was reading it. It felt like it was the right timing and message as I am feeling the scarcity of the moment. 😩 It was something I needed and it felt like God just answered me.
As we start February, I want to continue and will hold on to these words. I know it may not be easy and we are just starting the year. But, for the mean time, I’ll just do what I can, persevere, keep my faith and surely soon enough abundance will overflow. ❤️
Momma Potathoughts 😅 